These rants were why you were eventually banned. You were actually given a lot of leeway and space, not just because you contributed ROMs etc. Also your "rebranding" was noted and appreciated.
So your asking if the mods are "self-conscious" enough to evaluate things is ironic considering your above posts are exactly what got you banned before. "demonstrate it through dropping the seething disdain?" There has never been a blacker pot.
You remember that you managed to start an argument on the KHL plane crash thread, right? We're not the root of the problem. It's your lack of social skills. We tried to accommodate, egg shells were walked on. But eventually enough was enough, when you went off into these conspiracy-theory, freeman-on-the-land-esque rants. Just.. stop? You aren't going to be able to recover cordiality with absolutely everyone, but that doesn't mean everyone is out to get you.
Also, I/we knew you were game-winning-mullet instantly (it was obvious, even before you posted to a Tru thread minutes later). You could have made content under that friendly banner for the past year+. It was not *you* we tried to eliminate.
You're here, so do stuff and get along.
No one is going to do you account juggling favours. (edit: at least I don't expect so; there was no meeting about it or something)